Achluophboia

I just don’t get this. Honestly though, like “Hey :)” no. No smiley face. No hey. No asking me how I am. Nothing. And he’s honestly trying to make this friends thing work. I’m dreading school, and lunch. Ever since we started liking each other he’s sat next to me, and now what’s gonna happen tomorrow? I mean my best friends are good friends with him and they hangout so is he gonna stay or go back where he used to sit? Idk. I don’t know anything anymore. Everyone is asking if well get back together. Idk, he’s been busy with theater he’s going to be till March so ask me in spring I guess. I really wanted him for prom (he’s tall and handsome like almost a foot taller than me its amazing cause I’m really tall) I liked feeling short. I liked feeling liked. I mean I’ve felt it before, but I like how he was everything I’m not. How am I going to tell my dad and sister? My sister loved him, he’s the first guy I brought home that she loved. My dad even liked him. I even liked his family. His family felt like a real family to me. I feel like I could see it coming, him and I didn’t click 100% but I was trying to make it work out. I didn’t cry. I’m proud of myself for that. It just hurts. A lot. I was happy, like really happy for the first time in awhile. The first time in a year. I don’t even know anymore..